I love you !

I'm dying !
What the hell is going on to me at this moment ?
What the fuck is going on ?
I can't stand on this anymore !
First , i crashed my car twice in the same day .

I also felt bad even in my relationship .
I don't know how long i could stand on this .
I really feel bad and frustrated .

I don't know what the hell is going on between me and u .
I hate to pretend im that im happy infont of my friends .
It is really hard to balance myself .
I think im going to be mad if it keep on like this .

I may disappear if u really don't wish to see me .
I did so is just wish to give u a surprise .
But i failed .
You don't really seems like very happy .

Please don't pretend that nothing is happening .
I knew something really happened between us .
I don't know what is happening .

It happened without any sign .
I really love you .
I want to spend my life with u together forever and ever .
I can't affort to lose u anymore .

Will you willing spend your lifes with me together ?
I will wait for your answer k ?

If u don't really love me anymore , please tell me k ?
I disappear .
I knew this is the only way i could make you happy !
I love you .

Please tell me that u really love me and don't wish me to leave you agian .